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Illness as an Initiation


In my experience, if you do the deep personal work that is revealed to you through serious illness you will discover something amazing within yourself.

You will discover your magnificence, your strength and tenacity and your love and commitment to yourself and your connection to the divine.

Illness is an initiation.

Many of us have important moments of transition in our lives, which we experience in our bodies, that can be understood as initiations into a new way of being. They are gateways in to a more authentic expression of self.

Each of these initiations holds powerful information and the possibility of transforming long held patterns that no longer serve us if you allow the sacred journey to unfold. If we are open and allow it to happen.

It is not for the faint of heart ❤️

I believe this type of initiation is a soul contact. It is not, as the New Age movement would have you believe, something created due to out of balance thinking. Believing that we created something with our thoughts, creates shame and leads us away from true self discovery. It causes us to bypass pain so we don’t have to feel it and cheats us out of self discovery.

I am in awe of myself for allowing my initiation to unfold. I am proud for not giving up on myself and for having the strength to keep going even when it took everything I had to do so. I am grateful that I was willing to dive deep, past any limiting beliefs systems, past fear, past the lost of important friends in my life, past any feelings of brokenness, past disappointment and frustration to discover the gems of my authentic self.

I have nothing but the upmost love and respect for any of my friends who have experienced this kind of initiation, are experiencing it right now or going through it with a partner.




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Instant Manifestation


A curious thing happened to me last night that got me thinking about manifestation.I have had similar experiences before.

When I was getting ready to go to sleep I was listening to music. My phone kept sending me messages that people where liking things on my Etsy site. I thought , “Yay, I am getting momentum!” A couple more notifications came and I actually said out loud to my cats, “Wouldn’t it be fun to hear a ‘Cha ching’”, the sound you hear when someone makes a purchase. It was a matter of seconds and I hear “ChaChing!” Someone had made a purchase.

It got me curious. My sense of playfulness and lack of attachment caused the instant manifestation. How could I make it that easy with the other things that I want to manifest. Ah, to be in that place of the child, where life is a playground, where I am just a curious, playful kid exploring, with no attachments and things that I want just pop into my reality.

I think these small manifestations show us that we can manifest the bigger things if we get into that same space. That is what alignment is, right?


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A New Path Emerges out of Transformation Addiction


Painting by Katelyn Mariah, Oil and Egg Tempera on panel. Ibiza, Spain 2015

“One of the most enduring metaphors for the spiritual path is the transformation of the lowly caterpillar into a butterfly.  Out of its own substance, the ground-hugging grub weaves the medium for its metamorphosis—the chrysalis within which it evolves into a beautiful creature with wings.  The human being undergoes an equally dramatic transformation, unfolding the path to liberation from within the depths of the soul and emerging, after great struggle, as an expression of divinity in the world.”

I say none of this from a place of judgment but from an understanding that it was all necessary…

I have been on a path of transformation and self-healing for 30 years.  It began with a near death experience that opened me up to wanting to know who I really was and why I am on the planet, so for me to say that path has ended is a big deal!  I woke up one morning and realized I have had enough transformation and self-healing, I am done. If what we focus on is what we create, I had become expert at creating opportunities to transform and heal. It no longer felt loving to continue to dissect my psyche.  Transformation had become an addiction and going through it and coming out on the other side transformed was exhilarating. I realized that by the very nature of focusing on this path I was manifesting all kinds of experiences where I could go through the process of transformation.  After all what we focus on becomes our reality.  

The word “transformation” became popular in the 1960’s and 1970’s and became trendy in the 1980’s and 1990’s.  The word meant a spiritual awakening, though it’s deeper meaning would only become known through experience. Ultimately the spiritual path is never pleasant or comfortable.  You are literally breaking down the social programming and resultant beliefs and behaviors by diving into the psyche and seeing the truth.  Often times the truth is not easy to look at.  There were many times where a transformational event was set off that left me in pain for days while I searched for the way back to equilibrium. The process of transformation is often messy and painful.  I imagine it is a lot like how the caterpillar feels as it turns into goop.

Transformation is a taking apart process, to discover the true self so you can live an authentic life.  It is a necessary process on this planet because of all the programming we have layered on our true self through the socialization process.  Don’t get me wrong when I say I am done.  I am not saying it is a bad thing to transform and heal.  I am saying it can become addictive, sending us leaping from transformational event to transformational event. leaving us feeling like there is always more to discover and change. We are constantly “working on ourselves” and that is not fun.  When this happens we are often saying to the Universe, “I am not good enough the way I am, I need to fix that.”  The addiction to transformation can be unloving and unkind.  Very few of us love ourselves through the process.

If you begin to understand what you are without trying to change it, then what you are undergoes a transformation. ― Jiddu Krishnamurti

If you are constantly diving deeply, being self reflective and trying to fix things in yourself it is exhausting.  It is also hard on your body, mind and spirit because you are lowering your vibration and raising it all of the time. 

The thing that lead me to the place of saying “I am done, I have had enough” was yet another, big, painful opportunity to heal my body.  I have learned a lot about myself through issues with my body.  I am not chronically ill, in fact I am very healthy but I have manifested some heavy duty issues with my body.  Using the healing and transformation process in my book  Empowered Health and Wellness: Awakening Your Inner Physician I was able to discover what my body/soul was trying to tell me.  It was actually in the discovery process that I realized I was done!  I wasn’t thrilled that I needed to do another process of healing an issue with my body.  The metaphor that arose through the process was that of metamorphosis.  It was the perfect metaphor to lead me to understand that I was done with this cycle of learning and I could close the door on the path of healing and transformation.  Out of my process rose the butterfly of love and compassion and the beginning of my new path.

“When the ego says, “I can’t do this any more: this way is not working and I am done,” the soul says ‘Good. You’ve gotten everything you could out of this level of awareness and now we are going to take what you have learned and transform it into something bigger than you ever imagined it could be while you were going through it.”

“Being done” can not be planned.  You can’t pick a date and say that is the day I will have enough.  Just like you can’t pull the caterpillar out of it’s chrysalis and find a butterfly, you can only be done, when you are done!  You will feel it in your bones.

It happened for me on November 5th, 2015.  I picked up my journal and wrote: “I am officially resigning as poster child for self-healing and transformation!  I have mastered the process of healing and transforming and I no longer have to hone that skill.  I trust my body to re-balance itself whenever it is out of balance.  I am no longer having self-healing and transformation as my focus and I am choosing the path of LOVE.”   My divine inner genius responded: “We are so pleased at this outcome.  In loving yourself, know that your path is right and perfect at all times and that there are no mistakes.  All events up to this point have been to get you here.”

Yes, those of us who have been doing our spiritual work for year, we have processed enough. We have gone down enough rabbit holes. We can learn and grow and evolve just as easy through love and joy and it is way more fun. We don’t have to dissect our psyche any longer. I am being called to live an authentic life from a place of love and compassion. Continuing to transform myself no longer feels like self love to me.

I know who I am, I don’t think there is a stone left to turn over.  I have faced all of my dragons and met all of my demons and mined a lot of gems and diamonds in the process. I love the person I have discovered, which is the person I always was but just couldn’t see.

Now what? I have no clue but honestly it feels fabulous. Authenticity, following my heart and love feels good for starters. (This is not to say these things haven’t been part of my path already ) 

I am still left with the work of healing the current physical issue but now that I have learned what I needed to learn from it, it is only a matter of time before my body catches up and returns to balance.


Painting by Katelyn Mariah, Oil and Egg Tempera on panel. Ibiza, Spain 2015

The author, Katelyn Mariah is a visionary artist, author, conscious entrepreneur, and alchemist.  Learn more at

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Fierce Self Love

smiling young woman in summer field show heart shape hands sign


I mean, FIERCELY love yourself!

By only wanting what is best for you no matter what.

By knowing beyond anyone else’s opinion that you are AMAZING.

By LISTENING to the song of your soul and following it.

By saying NO when you feel NO and YES when you feel YES!

By honoring your body and give it the fuel, nourishment and movement that it needs.

By LIVING a balanced life.

By disregarding societies images and standards for perfection.

By being kind to yourself

By not owning or believing other people’s stories about you.

By surrounding yourself with people who get who you are and honor you as a gift to the planet.

By not compromising for the sake of acceptance.

By understanding that the limitations you feel are being created by you and let them go.

By knowing that your path is right and perfect just as it is and there are no mistakes.

By not owning other people’s or societies projections

By allowing and opening to all good things to manifest in your life.

By embracing your courage and just being YOU!

By not holding back or censoring yourself and letting your light SHINE*

By letting go of people, places and things that no longer serve you.

By giving yourself permission to be AUTHENTIC!

By embracing FREEDOM!

By showering yourself with daily doses of LOVE.

 By eating chocolate if you feel like it.

By giving yourself permission to SOAR!

By making a commitment to live AUTHENTICALLY, knowing there is something only you can bring to the world.



Katelyn Mariah


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The Soul of My Year 2015


It’s New Years Day!

There is always all this talk about New Years Resolutions, which I stopped doing years ago.  I moved from making resolutions to setting intentions in accordance with the Law of Attraction.  It turns out that intentions are only a softer way of making resolutions because you are setting intentions about what you want to accomplish.

I don’t know about you but when I set goals and/or intentions it switches on a button in my mind.  It is the “looking for evidence that it is happening” button.  Once I start looking for evidence of my manifestations I get derailed.  I go into a feeling state that doesn’t help me manifest anything closely resembling what I desire.  In fact it helps me manifest less of what I desire and more of what I don’t desire.

This year I decided to create my year out of feeling states.  What I mean by that is that I want to feel a certain way no matter what, be it in my business or personal life.   When you boil it down all the the goals we set are meant to get us to a certain feeling, be it joy, happiness, contentment, security, you name it, anyway, so why not just create the feelings to begin with.  If you know about the Law of Attraction it is all about feelings and thinking from a certain feeling state.

When you are feeling good, you are automatically attracting all the good things you want to you. Feeling good is your message from your  Internal Guidance System (Emotional Guidance/Inner Being) telling you that you are on the right track.  If you feel happy it is not just a feeling but a message to you that you are moving in the right direction, just like you GPS does in your car.

  • Feeling bad = you are going the wrong direction and thinking thoughts that are incorrect for you and what you want
  • Feeling Good = you are on the right track, going the right direction, thinking thoughts that ARE in alignment with how the Universe & Source Energy see you and want to tell how to proceed.

I want to build a successful business and setting goals, making resolutions might not get me there as fast as I can if I immerse myself in the feeling OF say prosperity or joy.  If I can wake up each morning and say, what will bring me a feeling of joy and prosperity this morning and follow the guidance I get I will be much more magnetic than if I say, “I have to call 11 leads, pass out 20 of my cards, read a few chapters in my personal development book so I can sign up some new team mates.”

So let’s say that you wake up and are committed to feeling joy.  You leave the house from the place of joy and you start meeting people because they are automatically attracted to your joy vibration.  Conversations start up and you find yourself talking about your business and because of how joyful you are the person you are talking with wants to know more and is interested in joining the business with you.  That was a whole lot easier than making 11 calls to leads, who may or may not be interested, many of them will say no.  You feel constricted because no one wants to make calls to leads and consequently things don’t move in the direction you hoped to go.

I chose 4 feeling states that I want to feel this year and those are the states out of which I will manifest the things I want to create.

  • Love
  • Joy
  • Prosperous
  • Radiant

After I picked the feelings I intuitively painted a painting to represent the soul of my year.  This is intuitive information from my internal guidance system that represents the focus for my year.  After the painting was complete I researched all of the symbols and wrote an intuitive message that goes with it.   I have done soul paintings for myself and other people for 17 years and because I know how accurate they are I can use this as a meditation to guide my year.


I am excited to use this beautiful painting and the intuitive reading as a guide for 2015.

If you would like to know how to get a soul portrait done for yourself follow this LINK   You can have one done for your birthday, for a special project you are working on, for your wedding or any reason you can think of.

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