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I Got Bad News From the Doctor the Other Day…


Before I tell you my story I want to share with you something I wrote last fall about what happens when the doctor gives you bad news.

Let’s play with this consciousness for a moment. Here is a scenario from a doctor’s visit where someone finds out they are very sick.

The doctor comes into the room and says, “I am sorry to have to tell you this but you have_______”

The blank can be any number of diseases or afflictions that are serious and/or life threatening.  The first thing the patient says to themselves is “Oh God, I have______!”

That becomes the story they tell to everyone.  They announce it on Facebook and tell all of their friends.  What happens?  The moment we give our agreement to a belief, we bring it to life and now we have other people bringing it to life too!  It is easy to predict what is going to happen.

What if the doctor came into the examination room and said something like, “We have some challenges ahead of us, but I am confident that if we all work together, they can be overcome. I will work with you, your family and your Inner Physician to find the right resources to get beyond these challenges.”  Think of the seed the doctor is planting through that statement and imagine what would happen.

When I wrote this I was just putting it out there as an idea.

The other day it happened to me…

I know this is going to be a bit annoying but I am not going to say what the doctor told me because I don’t want to put any extra energy toward it.  I will just say that it was not something I was happy to hear.  What I would like is rather then trying to figure out or wonder what is wrong with me just send me healing energy in what ever form that takes for you.

So,I had an exam and x-rays and told me a tiny piece of what she was seeing.  She also said she didn’t know if she would accept my case until she went through the exam findings.

I felt so well on the way to the doctor that I was wondering why I was even going.  When I left I was in pain all over my body!  That is the power of the medical story. Each of us has a story we attach to the top diseases and disorders when we hear them.  I had a story that I attached with this diagnosis.

I found it interesting that I went through a process that started with feeling defeated and broken, to angry about what was happening, to empowered, which happened today.

Last night when I went to bed I thought “how am I going to go to her office, listen to her findings and not let them land in my psyche?  I know from my experience of self healing and working with my Inner Physician, that the less information I had the better.

I woke up with a stroke of brilliance in my mind.  The way around getting hook in the story was to not hear the story at all!!!

This set off another chain of events because I have never had support from a doctor when I have shared my not so common ideas about healing. I have even had doctors laugh.  So I was nervous about doing it now but I knew I had to. I couldn’t hear the story because it would get crystalized in my psyche and slow down my healing or maybe even stop it entirely.

I arrived at the doctors office and was put in the office where the findings would be reveal to me.  The receptionist turn on a video that I was suppose to watch.  I didn’t want to watch a video I just wanted to get on with it.  I knew what I was going to say and just wanted to say it.

After about 20 minutes the doctor came in carrying my report and my x-rays under her arm.  We greeted each other and then I said ” I have a request”.  She said “sure, what is it?”  I said ” This might be out of the norm but I don’t want to hear your findings.  It is not that I don’t care or that I don’t think it is important, but I know how the mind works and I don’t want to get hung up on the details.  All I want to know is can we work together and will it help.”  She grabbed my hand and told me she understood completely.  She told me that she would work with me in the way that was best for me.

I talked with her about how I feel that when a doctor tells a patient what they have found out from their exam, especially if it is bad new that becomes their story.  I talked about how I felt that once the story was planted it interfered with the healing process.  I told her that everything doctors ever told me that were supposed to be permanent and incurable, no longer existed in my body. I also said that I believe what is happening is just information for me to evolve spiritually and that when I understand the message the issue will resolve.   I said ” You are the expert on the structures of the body and I am the expert on my body and how my inner physician works.”  She agreed.

We went through the whole interview without her giving me any more information about what was going on.  A couple times during the 30 or so minutes we both had tears in our eyes.

I gave her a few examples of how I had healed myself.  She said “This is music to my ears, when a client comes in using words like “I am very in touch with my body” or “I know how to get back in to alignment, I know this is someone who is going to make amazing progress and of course I want to work with you.”

This was the most empowering and healing experience I have ever had with a doctor.  I know I am in the right hands to reverse what is going on in my body and bring it back into balance and harmony!

I will be writing about this journey along the way and only when I am healed will I talk about what the issue is…sorry…I have to do it that way.


Katelyn Mariah is the author of Empowered Health and Wellness: Awaken the Inner Physician



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After a Long Challenging Relationship I am calling it Quits!



Yes, you read that right…I am ending the long challenging relationship that started way back when…

I took the damn thing and threw it in the garbage on garbage day so that I couldn’t go back out and retrieve it.  After all, I had a long term addictive relationship and it was hard to end it.  Trust me!

It was time to toss the bathroom scale out of my life!!!

I had a perfect photo of the “throwing the scale in the garbage” ritual, but when I sent them to myself via email, they disappeared so let’s use this as a visual:


I don’t even remember when I bought my first bathroom scale.  What I do remember was being told I was fat when I was a thin teenager.  I heard it a lot and it was probably what lead to my thinking I needed a scale in the first place…

After being told recently by one of my close friends that I was fat and filled with toxins and candida, I become obsessed with the scale and my weight.  What she thought was a helpful comment, was not helpful at all.  Friends to support each other by telling them they are fat!  Especially women, who are already obsessed with their weight.  First of all I am about 10 pounds over weight.  After hearing her “helpful”comment, I put on 100 pounds in my mind.  I lost a realistic image of myself and turned obese in my mind.  This is what happens to women who have eating disorders.  I don’t have an eating disorder by my image of myself was inaccurate.  I couldn’t look at photos of myself without seeing that extra 100 pounds!!

Every time I got on the scale I would say the number I saw on the scale in my mind.  Guess what happens when you do that?  You maintain that number.  If you say “I am ____pounds and I am fat” guess what happens?  YOU GET FAT!  This is how many women who want to lose weight, end up maintaining what they way and gaining weight.  It’s the Law of Attraction.  What we think about we become.  Thinking about your weight, what the number is and what you should and should not eat is insane!!  This is the birth of an eating disorder.

We are programming ourselves, ladies, and it is not getting us where we want to go.

The helpful bathroom scale HAS become your enemy!

Two days ago I threw the enemy our of my house for good! I didn’t even say “good bye”.  At first I was afraid I would gain 100 pounds over night because I wasn’t keeping check on that number on the scale.   That last two days I compulsively went to the bathroom to weigh myself only to find that I have no scale.

The day I threw my scale in the garbage I came up with a number of what I want to weigh.  Now I say the affirmation “I weigh___pounds no matter what I eat.”  And the beauty is, there is no way for me to prove that I am wrong because my friend the scale is gone!!

I am not a number on a scale.  I am not my 10 extra pounds.  I am not what I look like.  I am not my age.  We are short changing ourselves when we think like that.



I started wondering how women became obsessed with our weight and how we looked.  I don’t remember the obsession when I was a kid.  Twiggy came to my mind so I did some research.  Some of you might not know who Twiggy is so here is a photo.


“Twiggy’s popularity not only influenced many people to try and imitate her look, but also drastically influenced the rise in power of models in the fashion industry. She was a role model and revolutionary for today’s top models, but her popularity also brought along with it the irrational image of the ideal woman. Twiggy was a major trendsetter in America during the sixties, even though she hailed from England. In the sixties, the thought of a model taking advantage of her success to start a fruitful business was completely revolutionary. ””

Twiggy’s revolutionary impact on body image

The youngest of three girls, she was born Lesley Hornby in north London’s Neasden to a carpenter dad and a factory worker mom who worked a Woolworth’s counter to earn extra money. At 5-feet, 6 inches – short for a model – Twiggy weighed only 91 pounds when she exploded into the culture.

Weighing only ninety pounds and standing at five feet, six and a half inches, Twiggy was an incredibly thin, bony girl, making her perfect for this new trend in modeling. Twiggy’s BMI was astonishingly low at only 14.3. The lowest healthy BMI is 18.5, so her low weight may have been a danger to her health depending on her eating habits (“Healthy Weight”). This is a drastic change from the healthy image of an hourglass shape Marilyn Monroe conveyed during the ‘50s.

The ‘60s was the decade in which runway modeling became very important to high fashion. The models of this decade were much less womanly with their boy-like figures than models of the previous decade who had shapely curves, and these new models’ bodies were bony and hanger-like (“The Rise and Fall”). In addition to the growing importance of runway modeling, the ‘60s was also a period in which American society pushed back against traditional values of the previous decade. The counterculture of the ‘60s was characterized by “long hair, rock music…tye-dye, free sex, drugs, and riots” (“The Counterculture”). Twiggy’s striking and unusual look brought her popularity in this counterculture.   Article

So Marilyn Monroe was the original idea of beauty and that perception has undergone many changes from the original curvaceous figure of figure which was popular on television in the 50’s to Twiggy’s nearly emaciated figure of the 60’s.  Twiggy’s thin figure, popularized as runway modeling became more common, and a more sexualized, yet still thin, body type became even more popular with the increase in Farrah Fawcett’s popularity.   The image went from a healthy curvy body like Marilyn Monroe to a rail thin body like Twiggy’s over night.   The Twiggy body stuck and is still the idea today if you look at fashion magazines and models.

So when Twiggy blasted on to the scene and became so popular I wanted to be just like her!!

The trouble was, she was 5 feet 6 inches tall and weighed 91 pounds and she was the standard for beauty.  I was 5 feet 4 inches and weighed 120 pounds so according to the standard, I was FAT!!!  And if one was fat, they were not considered beautiful!

And that my friends is where my obsession with weight, eating and trying to be beautiful began…

So what I did 2 days ago when I ended my relationship and threw away my scale was an act of bravery!

If you can relate to any of this I would love to add your comments to the dialog below.  Thanks for reading.

Here is another great article Chubby, Skinny, Accepting

The author, Katelyn Mariah is a visionary artist, author, conscious entrepreneur and alchemist.  Learn more at

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