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Third Anniversary of Heart Attack

 

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Three years ago today, on the Equinox, I had the first of three heart attacks, that resulted in my having open heart surgery.  This first heart attack lead me on an amazing journey home to my heart. I painted this painting to celebrate the anniversary and my healthy ❤️

Early in the morning, three years ago, I had a dream that was a sacred ceremony in which the six pointed star was placed in my heart and the Vesica Pisces was placed in my womb. Both of these are symbols of balancing the Masculine and Feminine energies. So is the Equinox. I woke up knowing something powerful had just happened. That evening I had the heart attack.

I was blindsided. Soul contracts are like that!

That began a 2 1/2 year journey of self discovery, where I found out what I was capable of doing under extreme pressure. It showed me what I was truly made of and that I could endure the worst and become my best. It showed me my mortality and highlighted my desire to live❤️

This journey brought me back to my heart, which is the source of my wisdom. I know what my heart desires and what it doesn’t. It brought me back to my purpose, which is to share my love and deep wisdom through my art and I am committed and dedicated to that purpose now more than ever. No more distractions.

My heart is open. It is tender, sensitive and knowing as well as strong, wise and healthy. I am at home in my heart.

Thank you for witnessing my process, loving me through it, shoring me up when I needed it and showing me the importance of surrounding yourself with a community of care.

Sharing this journey was the most vulnerable thing I have done and not easy, but it felt important.

That chapter is done and I am onto a new chapter.

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The Angel of the Heart

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From the Resilient Heart Art book

#Healthyhearttip

“What if every illness had an angel assigned to it and we could call on that angel to help us return to perfect health? Why not? Most of us love angels, no matter what religion or spiritual path we follow. I feel a sense of peace when I see pictures of angels. I love the idea that there might be an angel for every illness and feel it is worth taking time to explore.

So, let’s say there is an angel assigned to heart disease. It is the same angel that can heal our broken heart…”

Intro to Chapter Four of Resilient Heart “The Angel of the Heart”

We can let this angel hold our illness for a time when it becomes too much for us to handle.  Just by letting go and letting the angel hold your issues for a while you open up a space for healing to happen.

Resilient Heart and Resilient Heart Art available at Mystickcreekpublishing

 

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Some Things Come as a Complete Surprise!

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Ever since I wrote my book and published it at the end of 2014  I have been learning about marketing.  Writing a book is one thing but marketing is another animal!  Something I didn’t have any education in.  I just wanted to write, I didn’t think about marketing!

After the excitement of a book launch and selling your new book to all of your friends reality sets in.  Now what do I do?  I started reading a lot of books on how who to market your book.  You know the ones:  How I sold a bazillion books on Amazon in a week,  How I jumped to the top 100 on Amazon in record speed,  How Oprah found my book and I got famous,  those books!  Most of those books only worked for the people who wrote them!

Elizabeth Gilbert, of Eat Pray Love fame was sent a copy of my book by a friend of mine when it first came out.  I signed it to her.  I think she is as close to Oprah as I will get, but who knows.  She could pick it up from her pile of books and read it someday and be delighted.

I learned very quickly that getting people to write Amazon review was like pulling teeth.  I am not sure I understand why but it is, even if the LOVED your book. It is a frustrating fact!  With out reviews your sales are less and when your sales are less your book hovers around the 2,000,000 rank on Amazon, which means no one doing a search will find it

For the last month I have been feeling frustrated with the whole marketing process.  I really didn’t know what to do!  My book is amazing and I know it will change lives if people read it, but I didn’t know how to get it into people’s hands!

If you are an author you know what I mean when I say, I got to the point where I was wondering if anyone cared.  I wondered if that was it, I was probably not going to sell any more books.  I had put myself out there in a very transparent way and had gotten very little feedback and couldn’t help but think maybe it was too honest.  Maybe I had revealed too much.  Maybe what I said didn’t have value after all.  This is the hard part about being an author in my opinion.  We write because we hope someone else will read what we wrote.  I don’t care what anyone says.  We want people to read our books and be touched in some way.  Humans love recognition, and I am not an exception.

Yesterday I got an email from a bookstore in Florida that is interested in my book.  The first line was “I found your book on-line and  saw that you won an award for it! ”   I stared at that line and thought, “No I didn’t!”  I did a google search and couldn’t find anything.  She wanted to sell my book in her store.  I didn’t want to email her back and say that I hadn’t won an award so I searched again, and found it.  I HAD won an award and didn’t even know it!

National Indie Excellence Award in Alternative Medicine

What?  That means I am an award winning author!

I searched my email and sure enough, there it was May, 17, 2015 and I missed it!

CONGRATULATIONS!

It is our great pleasure to inform you that you are a Winner in the 9th Annual NationalIndie Excellence Awards. Your book truly embodies the excellence that this award was created to celebrate, and we salute you and your fine work.

The lists of winners and finalists will be highlighted on our website. Please go to www.indieexcellence.com to see your name and book cover among those of the other proud winners and finalists.

The entire team at the National Indie Excellence Awards sincerely hope your participation in our contest will serve you well in your ongoing success. You have our deepest congratulations.

Warmly,

Ellen Reid
President & CEO
National Indie Excellence Awards

I surrender!  My book has a life of it’s own and apparently it is keeping parts of it secret until I am ready to hear about them.

If you are writing a book or have published a book and are at all frustrated with the process DON’T GIVE UP!

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Healing Space within…

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I have always believed that the “mistakes” we make when creating a work of art are the place through with spirit can enter the piece. I think the same thing is true of injuries and dis-ease in our body. It is an entry way for spirit and makes us more beautiful.  So if you are in the place of healing right now imagine that space in you that is out of harmony filled with gold.

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I Got Bad News From the Doctor the Other Day…

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Before I tell you my story I want to share with you something I wrote last fall about what happens when the doctor gives you bad news.

Let’s play with this consciousness for a moment. Here is a scenario from a doctor’s visit where someone finds out they are very sick.

The doctor comes into the room and says, “I am sorry to have to tell you this but you have_______”

The blank can be any number of diseases or afflictions that are serious and/or life threatening.  The first thing the patient says to themselves is “Oh God, I have______!”

That becomes the story they tell to everyone.  They announce it on Facebook and tell all of their friends.  What happens?  The moment we give our agreement to a belief, we bring it to life and now we have other people bringing it to life too!  It is easy to predict what is going to happen.

What if the doctor came into the examination room and said something like, “We have some challenges ahead of us, but I am confident that if we all work together, they can be overcome. I will work with you, your family and your Inner Physician to find the right resources to get beyond these challenges.”  Think of the seed the doctor is planting through that statement and imagine what would happen.

When I wrote this I was just putting it out there as an idea.

The other day it happened to me…

I know this is going to be a bit annoying but I am not going to say what the doctor told me because I don’t want to put any extra energy toward it.  I will just say that it was not something I was happy to hear.  What I would like is rather then trying to figure out or wonder what is wrong with me just send me healing energy in what ever form that takes for you.

So,I had an exam and x-rays and told me a tiny piece of what she was seeing.  She also said she didn’t know if she would accept my case until she went through the exam findings.

I felt so well on the way to the doctor that I was wondering why I was even going.  When I left I was in pain all over my body!  That is the power of the medical story. Each of us has a story we attach to the top diseases and disorders when we hear them.  I had a story that I attached with this diagnosis.

I found it interesting that I went through a process that started with feeling defeated and broken, to angry about what was happening, to empowered, which happened today.

Last night when I went to bed I thought “how am I going to go to her office, listen to her findings and not let them land in my psyche?  I know from my experience of self healing and working with my Inner Physician, that the less information I had the better.

I woke up with a stroke of brilliance in my mind.  The way around getting hook in the story was to not hear the story at all!!!

This set off another chain of events because I have never had support from a doctor when I have shared my not so common ideas about healing. I have even had doctors laugh.  So I was nervous about doing it now but I knew I had to. I couldn’t hear the story because it would get crystalized in my psyche and slow down my healing or maybe even stop it entirely.

I arrived at the doctors office and was put in the office where the findings would be reveal to me.  The receptionist turn on a video that I was suppose to watch.  I didn’t want to watch a video I just wanted to get on with it.  I knew what I was going to say and just wanted to say it.

After about 20 minutes the doctor came in carrying my report and my x-rays under her arm.  We greeted each other and then I said ” I have a request”.  She said “sure, what is it?”  I said ” This might be out of the norm but I don’t want to hear your findings.  It is not that I don’t care or that I don’t think it is important, but I know how the mind works and I don’t want to get hung up on the details.  All I want to know is can we work together and will it help.”  She grabbed my hand and told me she understood completely.  She told me that she would work with me in the way that was best for me.

I talked with her about how I feel that when a doctor tells a patient what they have found out from their exam, especially if it is bad new that becomes their story.  I talked about how I felt that once the story was planted it interfered with the healing process.  I told her that everything doctors ever told me that were supposed to be permanent and incurable, no longer existed in my body. I also said that I believe what is happening is just information for me to evolve spiritually and that when I understand the message the issue will resolve.   I said ” You are the expert on the structures of the body and I am the expert on my body and how my inner physician works.”  She agreed.

We went through the whole interview without her giving me any more information about what was going on.  A couple times during the 30 or so minutes we both had tears in our eyes.

I gave her a few examples of how I had healed myself.  She said “This is music to my ears, when a client comes in using words like “I am very in touch with my body” or “I know how to get back in to alignment, I know this is someone who is going to make amazing progress and of course I want to work with you.”

This was the most empowering and healing experience I have ever had with a doctor.  I know I am in the right hands to reverse what is going on in my body and bring it back into balance and harmony!

I will be writing about this journey along the way and only when I am healed will I talk about what the issue is…sorry…I have to do it that way.

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Katelyn Mariah is the author of Empowered Health and Wellness: Awaken the Inner Physician

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