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Notre Dame “OurLady” rising from the Ashes.

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The disempowered Feminine…I believe that many women I know who are on a spiritual path will relate to this.

She is the disempowered Feminine that has been held back by the patriarchy. She feels alone, she struggles to create abundance for herself, her heart is broken, and all of this wears on her health and well-being.

I felt this to the core of my being in the early morning Today, triggered by the events of the last three weeks, a conversation with a friend yesterday and the inferno burning from the heart of Norte Dame, Our Lady. It felt like a knife going through my heart.

I wrote this in my journal “What was the point of working on conscious awakening for 32 years if this is what I woke up to! What it looks like I woke up to being all alone, having a health issue, that goes on and on and I have no money. I was better off when I was asleep!!!” This is the archetype of the disempowered Feminine, and it shot through me like a lightning bolt! This has nothing to do with being a victim, this is what women have felt for a very long time.

The old disempowered Feminine (Norte Dame) held back by the patriarchy, kept under wraps in the cathedral, was burning away, released in the flames through the core of her being, and I directly across the ocean was feeing in the core of my being.

Why? Why did I have to feel this disempowerment so deeply?

Because I came to this planet to help Awaken the Empowered Divine Feminine. I carry an extremely high level of feminine energy, I have known that for a very time. I paint this new energy of the Feminine and have for 25 years, even when I didn’t know that was what I was doing. I have been following the pulse of the Great Mother.

I have felt this deep disempowerment at times, especially the last three years so that I can bring forward extreme empowerment for women.

Who are my sisters? Are you feeling this too? It’s time to rise up from the ashes and be heard! The resurrection of the Feminine.

Image from my Resilient Heart series.

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Is There a Problem with Public Inquiry on Facebook.

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On Thursday I made this post on my Facebook page,

“I am questioning my choice to be authentic on social media and in my writing. Does it really matter, does it really have value, does it make a difference, does it just create distance and misunderstanding, does it just create a reason for people to judge, is it worth me being uncomfortable and courageous because it might help someone or is it best to keep my true experiences to myself?

Until I figure that out, this will be my last post for a while.

For clarity, this post isn’t about me want approval for anything. It is me questioning if there is value to being authentic in this medium and in my writing, which I put a lot of time and effort into,in hopes of inspiring and encouraging.

It has nothing to do with being authentic in my life in general.”

Here is my conclusion…so far…

I have chosen to be very open about the process I have been going through the last three years. I believed that if I could be vulnerable and authentic and share the good, bad an ugly it would be helpful to people to see that we can move through something traumatic and have a positive outcome. This took courage on my part. 

In retrospect I think I was wrong in thinking it would be helpful. 

Here is why…

It is messy when we are shifting consciousness. It looks like we don’t know what we are doing. It looks like we aren’t very evolved. It looks like we don’t understand. We look foolish and it looks like we need help. 

The truth is, true healing comes from going through the process and coming out of the mess transformed. We learn through our own discovery and through our inner process of finding the answer that is right for us. 

This public vulnerability, unfortunately, opens the field for others to want to fix you, help you feel better, give you advice, share techniques and solutions that might shift you, judge you, (which by the way can be felt in the field if you are sensitive) and whatever else people do when they feel uncomfortable. All of that is human nature. 

None of those things is helpful to any of us when we are in that space. I think what we are asking in sharing in a vulnerable way is a compassionate witness. We want to know that people are behind us as we move through a difficult experience. That by itself can help you keep going. None of us is doing our own process wrong. It’s all perfect. 

As we are shifting into a new frequency on the planet we are all learning a new language, new behaviors and new ways of interacting with the field. The ways that use to work, don’t work any more but it is what we know.  We are all on a learning curve and NO ONE is making the shift perfectly or gracefully. I know I am not. 

And so what I have learned is this kind of personal, vulnerable inquiry is better done in my blog, where things are in one place, and where there is cohesion, so if someone desired they could follow the thread to see how I got from A to Z. The problem with FB is you might see A, H and Q in not know the rest of the story. 

That’s what I know so far.

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On the Bridge Between Stories

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On the bridge between stories, where nothing has seemed to change, is a precarious place. What you see and what you want to create are not a match and you can almost taste the shift happening, but nothing is moving. The old story isn’t serving you and you know there is something better.

We have all been there.

That is the place where you must focus on what you want to create and not on what “reality “ is showing you. That is the time when you must believe in magic, imagination, dreaming, mystery and all those things you were told not to believe in when you were a child.

Many people give up at this point because it is hard space to hold. It’s hard to believe in something you can’t see, but you must. This is extremely difficult when “reality “ is pressing down on you.  Stay the course.

And you will, because that better life you dream of for yourself can be the new reality. It might be just around the corner.

Trust and belief that there is something better is what is required, but not easy to achieve. In your heart it is easy to believe, in your mind it is not, so go to your heart and hang out there. Breathe…

Your heart will take you right into that new story. Let it.❤️

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Life is a Grand Adventure

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Life IS an adventure. A string of pearls that come together to create a beautiful necklace. Some of the stories are epic adventures, some just daytime dramas. Some of them are divine comedies, some a a float down the lazy river and some are tragedies. Some are child’s play.

But in the end they are all part of the love story that is you finding you.

I feel myself standing at the beginning of a new story and I am the artist…excited to see what unfolds.

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What are we doing here?

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Have you ever asked the question, “WHY AM I HERE?”

I ask it all of the time.

We weren’t created to spend 50 years, working 40 hours a week, to build someone else’s dream.  That is 104,000 hours!!  Holy crap!  Who planted this seed that we have to spend most of our lives working so we can retire and 65-70, leaving little time to find out what brings you joy?  How did it become the social norm?  Work to retire so we can do the things we love?  Many people drop dead from exhaustion before they even been to do the things they love after they retire.  My dad lived a year.

That is insane!!

The truth is, we are were created to be creative!  To be artists, writers, dancers, musicians, singers, chefs and lovers.  We are hear to create, dream, imagine and have fun and live in joy.  We weren’t created to slave, suffer, feel frustration, experience lack and be miserable!  We are here to co-create with each other and build a better world.  We are here to shift the paradigm that says we need to work 104,000 hours to make money to buy things.  We don’t need “All of the things that money can buy”!

We need each other.  We are here be authentic and shine our light in the world.

We are here to love and be loved.  To be kind, compassionate and peaceful.

If you do what you love and live an authentic life, you will be supported in all ways possible.

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We are each a miracle with something unique to add to the world.  Life is a miracle.  

What brings you passion?  What brings you joy?  If you don’t know, it is time to go out and find it!

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