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Between Uncertainty and Possibilities

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This is where I am, in the uncertainty and unlimited possibilities. Some days I can see the possibilities and other days I just see what’s holding me back.

I am rebuilding at a time in my life when I wasn’t expecting to rebuild. Having my life disrupted for three years with my health was a big challenge, especially for someone who was always healthy, always on the go, always creating.

I have recreated myself and now am recreating my life. It’s exciting and sometimes challenging. Maintaining peace and trust isn’t always easy. Sometimes I don’t feel peace and feel fear.

Having another heart event 5 weeks ago sucked. I am still recovering. Some days I feel great and others days I don’t. I look healthy but my body is still healing.

I have so many things I want to create and have to remember that if my body says it needs to rest, I have to honor that and not try to push through like I use to. Sometimes I feel the pressure to do when I don’t want to do anything. I let it go because I trust the perfection of my path.

It is hard for someone who hasn’t had the experience to understand what it’s like to have your life disrupted for three years because of health.
It disrupts you on all levels. Not only has your body changed but the way you think and feel changes too.  I believe that most people who have been challenged by a life threatening illness have PTSD. You wonder if you will ever get better and when the next issue is going to pop up, and if that pain you are feeling is serious or not.
Most people also experience financial trauma. Yes it is traumatic when you lose your source of income, drain your savings and max out all your credit cards and still have bills to pay every month.  This shouldn’t happen to someone who should be focusing on healing.  I know a lot of people going through this right now and when they publicly have to ask for help it’s embarrassing. It’s the last thing they want to have to do. Talk about stress!
The medical system in the US needs to be Rebuilt. It is in the dark ages when it comes to holistic health. The only way to truly heal is holistically and if we want to give ourselves the best health care we have to look outside of the system and pay for it ourselves.
I am committed to being a bridge between the medical system and the holistic health community through my work.

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Is There a Problem with Public Inquiry on Facebook.

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On Thursday I made this post on my Facebook page,

“I am questioning my choice to be authentic on social media and in my writing. Does it really matter, does it really have value, does it make a difference, does it just create distance and misunderstanding, does it just create a reason for people to judge, is it worth me being uncomfortable and courageous because it might help someone or is it best to keep my true experiences to myself?

Until I figure that out, this will be my last post for a while.

For clarity, this post isn’t about me want approval for anything. It is me questioning if there is value to being authentic in this medium and in my writing, which I put a lot of time and effort into,in hopes of inspiring and encouraging.

It has nothing to do with being authentic in my life in general.”

Here is my conclusion…so far…

I have chosen to be very open about the process I have been going through the last three years. I believed that if I could be vulnerable and authentic and share the good, bad an ugly it would be helpful to people to see that we can move through something traumatic and have a positive outcome. This took courage on my part. 

In retrospect I think I was wrong in thinking it would be helpful. 

Here is why…

It is messy when we are shifting consciousness. It looks like we don’t know what we are doing. It looks like we aren’t very evolved. It looks like we don’t understand. We look foolish and it looks like we need help. 

The truth is, true healing comes from going through the process and coming out of the mess transformed. We learn through our own discovery and through our inner process of finding the answer that is right for us. 

This public vulnerability, unfortunately, opens the field for others to want to fix you, help you feel better, give you advice, share techniques and solutions that might shift you, judge you, (which by the way can be felt in the field if you are sensitive) and whatever else people do when they feel uncomfortable. All of that is human nature. 

None of those things is helpful to any of us when we are in that space. I think what we are asking in sharing in a vulnerable way is a compassionate witness. We want to know that people are behind us as we move through a difficult experience. That by itself can help you keep going. None of us is doing our own process wrong. It’s all perfect. 

As we are shifting into a new frequency on the planet we are all learning a new language, new behaviors and new ways of interacting with the field. The ways that use to work, don’t work any more but it is what we know.  We are all on a learning curve and NO ONE is making the shift perfectly or gracefully. I know I am not. 

And so what I have learned is this kind of personal, vulnerable inquiry is better done in my blog, where things are in one place, and where there is cohesion, so if someone desired they could follow the thread to see how I got from A to Z. The problem with FB is you might see A, H and Q in not know the rest of the story. 

That’s what I know so far.

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Illness as an Initiation

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In my experience, if you do the deep personal work that is revealed to you through serious illness you will discover something amazing within yourself.

You will discover your magnificence, your strength and tenacity and your love and commitment to yourself and your connection to the divine.

Illness is an initiation.

Many of us have important moments of transition in our lives, which we experience in our bodies, that can be understood as initiations into a new way of being. They are gateways in to a more authentic expression of self.

Each of these initiations holds powerful information and the possibility of transforming long held patterns that no longer serve us if you allow the sacred journey to unfold. If we are open and allow it to happen.

It is not for the faint of heart ❤️

I believe this type of initiation is a soul contact. It is not, as the New Age movement would have you believe, something created due to out of balance thinking. Believing that we created something with our thoughts, creates shame and leads us away from true self discovery. It causes us to bypass pain so we don’t have to feel it and cheats us out of self discovery.

I am in awe of myself for allowing my initiation to unfold. I am proud for not giving up on myself and for having the strength to keep going even when it took everything I had to do so. I am grateful that I was willing to dive deep, past any limiting beliefs systems, past fear, past the lost of important friends in my life, past any feelings of brokenness, past disappointment and frustration to discover the gems of my authentic self.

I have nothing but the upmost love and respect for any of my friends who have experienced this kind of initiation, are experiencing it right now or going through it with a partner.

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Interview With Magnetic Authors: Barb Greenberg

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My friend Barb Greenberg has written two wonderful books that you will want to read.  Here is a recent interview that I did with Barb about her books and about being an author.

Here first book:

After the Ball: A Woman’s Tale of Reclaiming Happily Ever After

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Barb, can you describe your book so that people get a good idea about what it is about?

“Once upon a time there were two enchanting women named Cinderella and Snow White.  Though life had dealt harshly with them, they remained tendered hearted.  And by sweet happenstance, each fell in love and married a handsome prince.”

What  happens next in After the Ball is a story that resonates in the hearts of women, for whether you find yourself with a prince, without hope, or without direction, it reveals the universal truth about the power of women to transform their lives.

What is the inspiration behind the book or what compelled you to write it?

When I divorced after thirty-three years of marriage, I became very angry about the concept of ‘happily ever after,’ and I wondered what really happened to Cinderella and Snow White…later!!!

How long did it take you to write it?  Did you hit obstacles along the way?

It took a few years.  The first versions were rather angry, and then I realized that the story was not about the pain of losing your prince, but of the hope and joy of a new future and the ability to create your own unique ‘happily ever after.”

 Who is your audience?

Our main audience is women in transition, especially women dealing with divorce.  What is interesting is that middle school and high school girls love this book!

Tell my readers a little about yourself

I’m the founder and president of Rediscovering U (U as in University).  We offer eduction, resources and support for women approaching, experiencing or moving forward from divorce.

I love horses and breakfast at the Good Day Cafe!!

Where can people purchase your book?

After the Ball is available exclusively at www.Rediscoveringu.com

Here is a little bit about Barb’s second book:

Hope Grew Round Me

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Barb, can you tell my readers about this book so that they can get a good idea about what it is about.  

Hope Grew Round Me is the memoir of how a daughter’s life-threatening accident planted the seeds for a mother’s self-discover, and a heartwarming journey from crisis to transformation.

What is the inspiration behind the book or what compelled you to write it?

As my daughter was healing form her life-threatening accident, and as I began to heal myself, a friend suggested I write this story because she said, “There are so many things you can share that can help others.”

How long did it take you to write it?  Did you hit obstacles along the way?

It took a few years. I put the manuscript away many times, as I was going through a divorce, moved twice, and my older daughter got married.  I feel that books know when they are meant to be “born” and come into the world.

That is so true, from my own experience, Barb!!

Who is your audience?

 People looking for hope, who want to be reminded of their strength, and the possibilities of new beginnings.  The feedback from both men and women has been overwhelming.

You can find Hope Grew Round me on Barb’s website as well.

Thank you for taking the time to share a bit about yourself and your books barb.  I know my readers will love them both.

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Wow! What a Crazy Ride!

Ahhh…It has been ten months since I closed the door on my career of 26 years as a therapist and it has been an interesting journey of transformation and discovery for me.  I am not the same woman who walked away from a successful career ten months ago.

For many years I have had the mantra, “when I grow up I want to be 4 years old”.  It came from the fact that when I was four, life was grand.  It was easy, joyful, spontaneous and carefree.  I knew those were qualities I wanted to cultivate, but I also knew that it went deeper.

I wrote a blog about it called “When I Grow Up I Want to be Four”  which is an interesting read based on what we are energetically at four.  What I really wanted was to feel as I did when I was four but be able to use that energy from an empowered adult place.  The past 10 months have brought me closer to that desire.

In May of last year I created a level of prosperity that allowed me to close the door on the traditional J.O. B. One of the reasons that I wanted to create a level of prosperity which would make it possible for me to quit my job was so that I could do the things that I was passionate about, that had been put on the shelf for someday.

Silly me, I thought it would be a smooth, easy transition out the door of one way of life and into the door of a new one.  Wrong!  Here is where I ran into trouble.  I have been blessed with a lot of gifts and talents and I wanted to find a vehicle that would allow me to express all of them.  We are socialized to pick a talent and run with it and do that for the rest of our lives.  Ah, that seemed boring to me.  That is why I switched gears within my career so many times.  Staying in one place did not satisfy my restless heart.

The first couple of months I struggled with WHAT to do and because I couldn’t find the pretty package to dress it in, I did very little.  That is not entirely true.  I spent the last four years building the residual income business that provided me with the means to leave my job and I continued to work on that.  But I did little to move me forward to that “mission” I thought I was here to do.

For several months I pretty much gave up on the idea of finding the vehicle and did a lot of mindless things that had nothing to do with finding my purpose.  It was frustrating at the time but I know now that it was all purposeful because a lot was happening behind the scenes.  I was being shifted, changed and transformed in so many ways.

The last few months I have felt frustrated and invisible.  Upset because no one could see who I really was.  Everyone thought I was the women who “sold body wraps” and created a successful women’s networking group, but they didn’t really know who I was.  Why?  Because I was only showing that side of me.  Funny how that works!  It was the frustration of not being seen that pushed me to start showing myself.

Looking back I can see that I have been pregnant with myself all of these months and the process I have been experiencing has been a lot like pregnancy.  Not know what to do, getting frustrated, wanting to know, over eating, feeling exhausted and finally wanting to give birth to this thing!

At the nine month point in my “pregnancy” I felt a shift.  I started to feel that something was being born out of my process.  I began feeling a new energy around me.  One that is integrated, more focused and beginning to have direction.  I have been in that energy for about a month and I have the format for my purpose.  In fact…I am starting to feel like I am four again!

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