Category Archives: A wakening consciousness

Initiation

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Initiation is similar to when we were born. I imagine being born isn’t that fun and it is probably just as painful for the baby in some way as it is for the mother. The baby is leaving the warm, peaceful waters of the womb and is now being squeezed and push through the birth canal. It can take hours, and sometimes days, before they are born.

Personal initiation has the same quality. It is life changing and you are birthing a new you. I know from experience what it is like. You are moved way out of your comfort zone, your peaceful womb called life as you know it, and thrown into the birth canal.

You are squeezed, pushed and pulled to you limit to the point you want to quit to make it go away. You get a break and then another contraction happens. And another, and another. It seems like it takes forever and it will never end.

My contractions are closer together now. Some days are intense. I hope this means my new birth is eminent and expansion into my new life is near.

 

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Yesterday I Lost My Mind

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Yesterday I lost my mind!

I dropped from my mind into my heart and my heart started to speak about a key issue I have worked on/with for a big part of my life. You know that one that is slippery, yet insidious, that you can’t quite understand? That one that sneaks up on you when you least expect it.

As I wrote in my journal, I watched it unravel, before my eyes, in a way I had never seen before. It because crystal clear so I could see it. I could feel it release from my cells this time and I felt a lightness I had never felt before.

I understood that there is both a collective program/matrix and a personal program/matrix that hold each other in place. It takes deep, deep inner work to extract yourself because these programs reinforce each other so it’s hard to see. I am grateful for my tenacious persistence to do the deep work to free myself. Many people never get free.

I thank my heart for all it has shown me ❤️

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Don’t Give Up!

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Do you ever feel like giving up, throwing in the towel, quitting?
I have, many times.
Especially when it feels like I have made a little progress and I keep get thrown curve balls. Who wouldn’t want to quit!!!

What stops me?

I have always had what some might call a Pollyanna attitude that something good is just around the corner and I don’t want to miss it by giving up too soon.

And something always comes to shift me. It could be something small but it is just enough to make me believe in life again.

I also use my challenges to evolve so that motivates me to find the treasure and move on.

Being human isn’t always easy on one hand and on the other it can be magical.

What keeps you going during challenging times?

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Third Anniversary of Heart Attack

 

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Three years ago today, on the Equinox, I had the first of three heart attacks, that resulted in my having open heart surgery.  This first heart attack lead me on an amazing journey home to my heart. I painted this painting to celebrate the anniversary and my healthy ❤️

Early in the morning, three years ago, I had a dream that was a sacred ceremony in which the six pointed star was placed in my heart and the Vesica Pisces was placed in my womb. Both of these are symbols of balancing the Masculine and Feminine energies. So is the Equinox. I woke up knowing something powerful had just happened. That evening I had the heart attack.

I was blindsided. Soul contracts are like that!

That began a 2 1/2 year journey of self discovery, where I found out what I was capable of doing under extreme pressure. It showed me what I was truly made of and that I could endure the worst and become my best. It showed me my mortality and highlighted my desire to live❤️

This journey brought me back to my heart, which is the source of my wisdom. I know what my heart desires and what it doesn’t. It brought me back to my purpose, which is to share my love and deep wisdom through my art and I am committed and dedicated to that purpose now more than ever. No more distractions.

My heart is open. It is tender, sensitive and knowing as well as strong, wise and healthy. I am at home in my heart.

Thank you for witnessing my process, loving me through it, shoring me up when I needed it and showing me the importance of surrounding yourself with a community of care.

Sharing this journey was the most vulnerable thing I have done and not easy, but it felt important.

That chapter is done and I am onto a new chapter.

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A Time to Incubate

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I believe there are times where it is important to share our stories authentically as ther unfold. It can be healing for the teller and the listener. You will know when that time is.

And other times when it is time to incubate and hold the new story tenderly. We don’t want outside influences when we are nurturing a new story.

For now, as I write my new story, I hold it in sacred space within my heart, as its midwife💚…while it incubates ❤️

I am at the end of the bridge between the old story and the new story just about to step into the new. The sacred space of new beginnings.

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