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The World is Waiting for the Authentic You.

Be your authentic self and share your gifts

Unleashing My wild creativity!

Let the world see who you truly are. There is NO ONE else like you. There is no one to compete with or compare yourself to. Share the gift that only you can share.

It all comes down to self love. Once we truly love ourselves life gets easier and we can shine and share our authentic self.

I mean truly love ourselves not just give lip service to it. Oh it’s easy to say, “ Sure, I love myself” but saying it and really feeling it deep within and believing it are two different things.

Can you love yourself when you “screw up”?
Can you love yourself when you are sick and really need your love?
Can you love yourself when you feel alone?
Can you love yourself when you can’t pay your bills?
Can you love yourself when your world seems to be falling apart.

Loving your shouldn’t…

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April 20, 2019 · 7:18 am

Third Anniversary of Heart Attack

 

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Three years ago today, on the Equinox, I had the first of three heart attacks, that resulted in my having open heart surgery.  This first heart attack lead me on an amazing journey home to my heart. I painted this painting to celebrate the anniversary and my healthy ❤️

Early in the morning, three years ago, I had a dream that was a sacred ceremony in which the six pointed star was placed in my heart and the Vesica Pisces was placed in my womb. Both of these are symbols of balancing the Masculine and Feminine energies. So is the Equinox. I woke up knowing something powerful had just happened. That evening I had the heart attack.

I was blindsided. Soul contracts are like that!

That began a 2 1/2 year journey of self discovery, where I found out what I was capable of doing under extreme pressure. It showed me what I was truly made of and that I could endure the worst and become my best. It showed me my mortality and highlighted my desire to live❤️

This journey brought me back to my heart, which is the source of my wisdom. I know what my heart desires and what it doesn’t. It brought me back to my purpose, which is to share my love and deep wisdom through my art and I am committed and dedicated to that purpose now more than ever. No more distractions.

My heart is open. It is tender, sensitive and knowing as well as strong, wise and healthy. I am at home in my heart.

Thank you for witnessing my process, loving me through it, shoring me up when I needed it and showing me the importance of surrounding yourself with a community of care.

Sharing this journey was the most vulnerable thing I have done and not easy, but it felt important.

That chapter is done and I am onto a new chapter.

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I Think the term “social media “ confused me.

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I have been having a dialogue on Facebook about whether to share authentic experience or not. It was a genuine inquiry I was having with myself because part of me felt it wasn’t working. I often get a lot of comments, Hearts and thumbs ups on some of my post so it wasn’t about not being seen. I am starting to see what might have been coming up for me whempn I wrote this blog about how I did Facebook in general.  It all started with this series of questions and a rich dialogue insued.

“I am questioning my choice to be authentic on social media and in my writing. Does it really matter, does it really have value, does it make a difference, does it just create distance and misunderstanding, does it just create a reason for people to judge, is it worth me being uncomfortable and courageous because it might help someone or is it best to keep my true experiences to myself?

Until I figure that out, this will be my last post for a while.

It is me questioning if there is value to being authentic in this medium and in my writing, which I put a lot of time and effort into,in hopes of inspiring and encouraging. “

I wasn’t really angry or making someone wrong or saying I was wrong, it was a genuine inquiry about was the way I was posting working, because I was feeling that it wasn’t.

The dialogue that came from this post and a subsequent post was rich, informative and was helping me get clarity in interesting ways. But a couple of things were confusing to me.

Suggestions to re-evaluate my thinking weren’t landing right, nor were suggested techniques for going deeper within my self. A handful of people suggested that I wouldn’t be having these questions if I just “write for myself and don’t worry about what people think”.  One person even put it in all caps so I wouldn’t miss it.

I couldn’t stop thinking about the point of writing. Isn’t the point of writing and painting to communicate something to the world?

When I write I am having a dialogue with you, I am not just talking to myself. To me it is different than writing a newspaper article, which isn’t a written dialogue, it is a one sided sharing of facts.

When I write I feel like I am with you, like we are out to coffee connecting and my post is part of the dialogue. I don’t go out to coffee with someone to have a conversation with myself. I could stay home and do that. When I write on Facebook is a conversation with you, the person reading what I wrote.  I don’t see my posts as a diary where I am writing to me for myself.  It’s a real, conversation with real live people. My heart and soul desire real interaction.

My life has always been about creativity, imagination, the supernatural and expressing from that space, to make connections with my fellow human beings.  I am a deep person and I realize now that might be at issue here too.

I am not one to share what other people write without adding my one thoughts and understanding to it. I might find a quote and use it as a jumping off point or to reinforce the thought I am sharing.  My process goes like this…I am having a curious thought about something or I just had an experience and I think I will share it with my friends because it might spark something in them that they can relate to. Depending on what it is, I think sharing it might be helpful to someone as well. (Some might see this as an ulterior motive, I guess). At any rate I think it might be an interesting thing to have a conversation about so I post it on my Facebook page.

I feel like there is a richness that happens when we share our experiences with each other. It’s a co-creative process. We aren’t separate, we are having a human experience together. I feel like the conversation is about us. This is the same way I write when I right books.

I don’t know if it works this way for everyone or if this is just the way a creative mind works. I think we are on earth to experience the richness of human connection, to share with each other, and learn from each other. We feel less separate. The only way I know how to do that is through dialogue and interaction. Social media allows us to do that even if we are thousands of miles away. I don’t feel the distance though, I feel like we’re are just across the table from each other, sharing coffee.

Just like any interaction there are an array of feelings that come up, some we like and some are less pleasant, but none of them means someone is wrong or that I don’t love myself enough, because if I did I wouldn’t have negative feelings.

I get it that it is less likely that I would bring up feelings if I just wrote for myself.  The truth is if I just wrote for myself, I would see no reason in posting it on my Facebook page.

So is Social Media, just another media outlet or is it a place to be social?

 

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Broken Hearts

 

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This piece is from the introduction to Resilient Heart, and it is directed toward women, though it certainly can be true for men too.

“I believe that the real metaphor in heart disease is that many of us are walking around with broken hearts. I know I was and I didn’t even realize it because it was an issue I had worked on for years. I thought I had done the work.

As women, we have had many reasons to suffer broken hearts. We have only just begun to get equal rights with men. We have been paid less, devalued, considered second class citizens and have been held back in all kinds of ways. It’s in our DNA. I also imagine that most women reading this book have had failed relationships, because our generations have been the guinea pigs for creating a new relationship model that was different than our parents and we have struggled to get it right.

Many of us have had our hearts broken and haven’t had time to grieve because we were left as single parents trying to survive and provide for our children. Who had time to mend a broken heart? I didn’t! I was in survival mode for 14 years and couldn’t think about myself. During those 14 years I had other relationships that ended up breaking my heart to compound the issue.

It is time for us to realize that we are the very essence of the Divine, that we are beautiful, have great value,are bright, creative and we are not going to be held back. It’s time to mend our broken hearts and stop this epidemic of heart disease. It is my hope that by reading this book you are inspired to take the steps to heal your heart before you have a heart attack. Women no longer need to be statistics of any kind. “

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Kitty Purring for Heart Health

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I am doing this series all of February for Heart Month.

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From Chapter 36. Kitty Purrs from Resilient Heart

“My cats BJ and Charlie and I are very connected, and they are natural born healers. I got BJ from a client when he was a baby. Charlie came a few years later from the Humane Society. They have always known what to do and where to sit on me when I have been sick. Ever since the first heart attack they have taken turns sitting on my chest purring. I call it purr healing. They are so cute when they crawl up on me and lay down on my chest. They cross their paws over my heart and purr loudly. I didn’t realize there was a reason for this until I read an article about cat purring and your health.

The soothing sounds of a kitty can aid your…

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February 9, 2019 · 6:57 am