Accepting what is, is hard for our human nature, especially when we are asked to accept something that is challenging. We want to have some sense that we are in control. That’s human nature.
This is partly because of how the unknown outcome plays out in our mind. We think we know how something will turn out before it does and in challenging situation the story usually isn’t positive. Not many of us go through challenging situations and believe the best will happen unless we have done a lot of deep inner work. I have done a lot of deep personal work and it is still hard for me.
What if letting go of what you fear might happen, opens the door for your best possible outcome to happen? what if things really do always work out for your highest and best? I have had this happen on a number of occasions but I usually have to go through my control gyrations first. You would think positive experience would dictate response but that doesn’t always happen, especially with health challenges.
What if the story you conjure up in your mind is no where near the outcome that is intended and you are blocking a blessing by holding on?
The deeper healing comes when you can say to yourself, here is what I am afraid will happen and I accept that too, no matter how bad you think that will be. You can’t trust the highest outcome if you are busy trying to control.
Today I am practicing acceptance, patience and letting go.
Question, how does letting go and holding a positive intention for the outcome fit together? Or does it not fit together? Is intention setting just another form of control?
Still laying low today, taking cat naps, but feeling a little better.
I think what is going on is my immune system is being challenged by allergies because the weather has been so damp. I spent a lot of time researching air purifiers to find one that is going to help with mold and pet allergies. I live in a big house that is over 100 years old so I am sure there is mold in the air and I also have a cat that sheds so much you could make another cat out the hair left behind.
This down time has given me time to do some work on line, make some calls and set up a meeting for next week for my business. I think that taking it easy is taking me through what ever I have and it is leaving quickly. When I was working I often went to work on days that I felt ill and it lasted a lot longer each time. That was the problem with only working part time and not getting paid if I didn’t. I am so grateful now because I am still getting paid as I lay on the couch taking it easy.
That it for today…going with the flow.
Today I had three appointments on my calendar so there was less spontaneity. I also noticed I was not in the flow as much as I have been and there was a lot of mind chatter. The annoying kind of mind chatter where I am comparing myself to other people and generally irritated about things.
I had made a commitment to myself, when I started this process, to get back into the flow as soon as I found that I was out of the flow. The actual commitment statement I am saying everyday is ” I choose to set my intentions for a day of flow and grace. I am in harmony with all that I encounter and connect to my higher wisdom.” I intend to notice if and when that connection weakens and reconnect in that moment.”
I didn’t notice in the moment because once I got into the mind chatter I didn’t remember to notice when I was out! I did notice sometime later and by then I was really irritated.
Staying in the flow and grace isn’t always easy, especially when there is a lot going on, like moving from one meeting to the next to the next. Traffic really irritated me today too, with all of the construction, exploding roads and truck traffic I was late for my first meeting. I am pretty sure that is what got me going in the first place and from there my mind was off to the races with chatter.
Staying present an conscious takes practice. Today I didn’t do so well…