I feel like my life has returned to tabula rasa. Now that I know I will not have to go to work I have been having this sense that there are unlimited possibilities for what I can do with my life.
Tabula Rasa is the Latin for “scraped tablet.” It is used to represent the clean slate that is supposed to be the mind of the newly born. It is a blank canvas that sits before the artist before they begin to paint.
All the years that I have had a job had a way of blocking my sight from the possibilities. By holding on to what I thought was security I have limited myself. I knew that anything was possible, but it seemed to be out in the future, out of my reach, because there just wasn’t enough time or energy to do it. There is a book called “Do What you Love and the Money Will Follow” by Marsha Sinatar. A part of me believed that philosopy and yet I couldn’t trust it because it wasn’t the social programming I was fed as a child and young adult. I had to change my consciousness through unraveling my early programming, in order to embrace the idea that I can do what I love and money and support will be there.
In the past three years I have worked two jobs so I had less time to do what I love. During that time, though, I have really been honing my manifestation and visualization skills. When I started my own business the goal has always been to be able to quit my job and do what I love. I always kept that goal in my mind, but the other things like travel, painting, writing and other fun things were out in the future.
Now, because I have opened the door to freedom and trust my self and the co-creative universe, I find myself imagining things as though they are already a part of my life. I feel like I am at a smorgasbord and I can pick what brings me the most joy from all of the choices. The difference between then and now is I feel like I am standing IN the field of possibilities instead of outside of it, imagining that it might exist. I can feel a new life and a new me as though I am emerging from the cocoon of the past and becoming the authentic butterfly that I am. Everything I have done to this point has fed the new dream, so I have know regrets.
When there are things that we have to do everyday we get stuck in a rut and create a routine. The word “rut” and “routine” have a similar meaning. A routine is a sequence of actions regularly followed or a fixed program, where as a rut is a sunken track, path or groove made by the repetitive passage of vehicles or people on foot. It can also mean a fixed, usually boring routine.
The challenge with starting a new life is not to start a new routine that becomes a rut. Ruts are not expansive nor do they support dreaming, imagining or creating. We fall into them because they give us a sense of safety and control. Imagine what life would have been like if we were raised to believe that we had a clean slate each morning on which to create a new work of art. What if we believed we could do what we love and the money would follow?
That is the concept I want to embrace in this new reality that I have created, because when we are open to all the possibilities we are magnetic and that magnetism can lead us to our joy and our prosperity. Thinking about it that way makes me feel excited and jazzed to see what magic I can stir up for myself!