Maybe hemp is in the forefront to counterbalance the damage done by pesticides, chemtrails, vaccines, GMO ‘s, and fluoride!
I believe it’s no accident that Hemp oil is so popular! It targets some of the major issues caused by these toxins.
“As most of you know, psyche is the Greek word for soul. It’s also the Greek word for butterfly. If you have a protagonist in a story whose name is Psyche, you might expect that she will go through a major transition and crisis. Will she survive it? Will she come through and be transformed, or will she die? That’s one way of looking at the Psyche myth.”
I painted the image at the top in November 2015 in Ibiza, Spain. What I knew at the time was it was a painting of Psyche floating on the River Styx. What I didn’t know was it was an announcement to me that I was about to begin an initiation that would last almost 4 years! I was about to enter the underworld. In the painting she is going towards something in the past.
Four months later I had the first in a series of heart attacks that lead to open heart surgery.
Just like Psyche I would be faced with challenges, I would be fearful and I would find the resources and helpers to get through each challenge.
The image below taken in another boat. Part of my spiritual lineage is Egyptian. What I know about this painting is that the heart is healed and it is in a boat moving forward in life. It was painted on an eclipse where the masculine and feminine energy is in balance. Much of my initiation and healing has been about balancing the inner masculine and feminine.
I also understand from this image that when two hearts come together in love, a shared heart is created that is greater than both of you.
This is a much deeper story but my intention here is to show the before and after paintings. I can always trust the vision in my art. It is predictive.m
Just by its nature, illness puts you in a state of lack. It creates exhaustion, loss of health, loss of income, pain, fear and grief. Serious illness threatens your life on all levels, especially if it is long term. You can not create health and abundance from this state of consciousness and more likely you continue to create more of the same.
Part of healing is pulling yourself out of this state of mind. Many people don’t have the tools or inner resources to do this and often end up living in this place of lack.
Imagine if illness and the subsequent financial difficulties that often follow came into your life to teach you how to be healthy and abundant and you needed to be a willing student in order to learn. Easier said than done, right? You are sick, exhausted and broke for God’s sake! I get it because that has been my journey for the last 3 1/2 years. It’s easy to find lack because it is always in your face, in the pain, the doctor visits, exhaustion, fear, unpaid bills and the phone calls from bill collectors you get every day. Those things constantly pull at you.
Before I had the first of five heart attacks and open heart surgery, I believed I was prosperous and healthy and I was on the physical level. I didn’t have credit card debt, I was making $8000-$10,000 per month, I could travel, bills were paid on time, I could give money to people in need and physically I felt great. But a true state of prosperity and health is an inner state of mind that has nothing to do with the external world or having money. From an inner state of health and wellness we attract everything we need.
That was where I was still out of balance and had things to learn. My path was one of cultivating a prosperous heart. In order to do that and to see and discover what was out of balance I needed to experience extremes and as an added twist I needed to do it alone rather than having a partner to support me.
I realized from the beginning that I was being asked to be the student of this powerful teacher. I am not saying I was always willing and that there wasn’t screaming, crying and bashing of teeth, yet I learned so much about who I truly am by having my world turned inside out! Illness has been a formidable teacher.
Now I end my day with a question that you might want to try too. How was I prosperous today? From there I look back on my day thinking about how I was gifted with health, financial abundance, love and joyful experience and feel grateful.
You can pull yourself out of lack consciousness after serious illness. I am not saying it is easy. I am saying with a commitment to living a new state of consciousness from what you are currently experiencing and baby steps and self compassion you can do it!
Supplement plus inner work.
I wanted to make sure this wasn’t a just fluke before I posted this.
I am super excited about this!!!
Ever since the first heart attack 3 1/2 years ago I could feel my heart beating in my chest all of the time. I am not saying I would put my hand over my heart and feel it beating. I didn’t have to do that. It was beating so that I could feel it without touching my chest.
It wasn’t because I was stressed out. It was when My bpm was normal 60-70 BPM. When I was stressed out it was 5 times as strong like it was going to jump out of my chest. Sometimes it was hard to go to sleep because I could feel it in the front and the back. It was pounding with a normal heart rate as if it wanted my constant attention. It wanted me to see something.
I don’t know if other people feel their heart beat like this, but I never did. It did it’s thing and I didn’t pay attention because I couldn’t feel it.
I did some deep emotional clearing on the solar eclipse and I started the second week of the supplement I am taking.
Yesterday I woke up and my heart wasn’t beating like it has for 3 1/2 years. I can’t feel it. It sounds weird to say I am excited that I can’t feel my heart beating , but I am. It blows me away, actually.
My heart feels quiet and peaceful. It feels like it is beating to a new joyful frequency. I feel this unexplainable joy frequency in my body.
I see this as huge progress toward the wellness I am moving toward. I have seen what my heart wanted me to see and now it has settled down. Maybe it is telling me the tumor is gone. Time will tell. With a joyful, peaceful heart, healing is probable ❤️
I have an amazing heart. No doubt about it!
PS…I am curious if other people feel there heart beat all of the time?
Painting by Katelyn Mariah, title The Compass of the Heart.
“For a seed to achieve its greatest expression, it must come completely undone. The shell cracks, its insides come out and everything changes. To someone who doesn’t understand growth, it would look like complete destruction.” ~ Cynthia Occelli
Be careful what you ask for because the Universe can be very efficient!
Often when someone comes down with a life threatening illness, people say to the that they created it with there thoughts, because that is what the Law of Attraction Movement has thought us.
For the most part this is not a compliment about how powerful a creator you are but a shaming comment about the “mess” you have created.
I invite you to set that aside for a moment and look at a different perspective.
Yes, I created the heart journey I have been on for 3+ years, but not out of a negative construct but out of positive intention setting.
My positive intentions set this all in motion so that I COULD realize my desires.
On March 8, 2016 I did a release and intention setting ritual on an important date astrologically for me. I remember thinking “I hope I didn’t do too much”. Oops, too late!
I am in fact a powerful creator and manifesting magnetic and what might look like a “big mess” is really the most efficient way to get to what I desire to create. Twelve days after the ritual I had the first heart attack.
Everything that was not in alignment with my desire had to be released. These were cellular issues that I couldn’t see, that having a series of Heart events helped me see clearly. We see this clearing happening on the personal and planetary level right now. The weather is a great purging force. In my case my whole world had to fall apart to be put back together in a new way so my path was clear.
The Law of Attraction would have us believe that we desire something and boom it’s there in front of you. This is rarely true. Yes I have had a few instant manifestation but they are more the exception and not the rule. We waste a lot of time feeling shame and being hard on ourselves because we don’t have the Law of Attraction wand of instant manifestation. Surely we must be doing something wrong.
Oh no we aren’t.
The Universe and my soul chose the fastest, most efficient way to clear the path for me to manifest my desires. I could have set intentions Year after year until the cows came home and never seen the results I wanted. I am starting to see evidence in my life that I am moving in the direction of my dreams.
Having your heart broken open over and over and facing death is great at revealing what you need to see. Ohms and a magic wand would never have shown me what I needed to see.
I have a deep sense of peace, purpose and rightness about what I have gone through and how it’s serving my evolution.
So, what looks like chaos is often really order in the big scheme of things!